This is my messy vanity. Just how I left it this morning. *Sigh* I have just about a whole room to myself – to beautify
popped pandora and went half at it. put everything back in their pretty little homes and called it a night.
here’s the after pictures!
i found these ikea drawer organizers and placed all jewelry in them. i just gotta find the rest of the family hahahha!
Alright, it’s been almost a year since I last wrote an entry, and I’d like to update blogworld what I’ve been up to.
I quit my 2nd job and now only work Monday – Friday business hours (yay!!) – however, I’m stuck in commmute at least 2.5 hours each day just to get to work (no yay > < ) I'm still thankful I work at such a great place!!
Since I quit, I’ve really been just trying to domesticate myself and get into a new schedule and new habit. House is still a mess, but not as messy as before. I’ve learned to maintain a schedule of laundry so it doesn’t load mountain high again. I’m starting to learn how to cook and *try to plan ahead of time.
I’ll make time to blog more just to see the progress.
I used to be oh so organized, everything had a place, everything had a nice container, labeled, laundry was well kept. . the only thing I was always troubled about was the trail SO left everytime. . . I degressed, I lowered my standards and stopped caring.. I look at my home now, and I’m stuck in a real deep dark hole, and my only enlightment, unfortunatly, are my happy pills.
Shoe Closet – a MESS. Kitchen – a MESS. Living Room – a MESS. Laundry – undone and definitely a MESS. Master bedroom – a MESS.
Sometimes it’s so damn hard to keep a top when you can barely float.
There’s one thing I forgot to mention. . . I have 2 full time jobs, I stay in 2 different homes, I barely have any sleep and oh, I have a daughter I’m raising. During the weekdays, I catch sleep at my parents home. I work during the day and then wake up to work graveyards, only to repeat the cycle again. I focus my energy at work, since my performance is my asset. Second to that is my daughter. Luckily, I have family helping me take care of her and off load some responsibilities when I’m asleep. I have the weekends off which I come home to a mess. I then spend my whole weekend cleaning up. . The cycle then continues.
I can’t off load any work to SO since he’s studying for his nursing exams, yet it’s quite frustrating because the work is just never done. We have as much allybies for the housework. .
My plan for this year was to put everything in a positive point of view, but there are just sometimes when I feel like I need to give up. I’ve been so entrapped with responsibilities and expectations I just want to end it all. .
I know the end of the tunnel is near, but everytime I think I’ve reached the end, it just curves back into another tunnel . .
I guess my only other choice is to work on it. I have to swallow yet another anxiety pill and deal with it. No one else will help me. . . No one else understands my frustrations. . . No one else sees the pain beyond my smiles. . I’m alone, and if travelling along is the way out, then be it.
I’ve decided to create a completely separate blog for my journey to organization.
Background about me:
I was raised by my parents who are probably the perfect example of packrats with an overly highly obsesive compulsive disorder (if that’s even a syndrome.) My dad has an ill problem about bringing anything and everything back home and pack in to their crowded room. My mother on the otherhand keeps on buying and shopping anything her bank account (or even credit cards) can afford.
I really never really knew what ‘clean’ was – and I was raised by the fact that being dirty is not okay, but accepted. I too have the shopping habit, but have changed.
I came to a point in my life where I don’t want to be anything like my parents, and that enough was enough. I got out of the house, bought my own home and am now striving to live differently.
With my current lifestyle, it’s impossible for me to have time to get to the knitty gritty, but hopefully with blogging, I can get a hold of my life. . and hopefully share with people my struggles and my up comming success.
I currently have 2 full time jobs (day job & overnight) a 4 year old daughter, have a fiance, and am in the process of planning for a wedding in 2009.
That’s my situation in a nutshell – and will blog more about everything!
i will BE organized 